Hello Again

Hello, everyone! I am back. 🙂

Firstly, I’d like to apologize. I feel like I’ve been such a crappy blogger. I’ve been wanting to put a post up earlier than this, and to go visit all your blogs and see what you lovelies have been up to and leave replies on your posts—especially those who’d left such lovely comments on here while I was on hiatus—but I haven’t had enough of me to do that because the past couple of months have been tough. So I’m truly sorry for not being as present as I would’ve liked to be.

You know it’s bad when as a writer, you can’t even write about your personal struggles anymore. Writing used to be enough to get me through a rut, but these past few weeks had taken so much of me none was left over to allow me to write my way through. I had left my writing self out on the gutter, and that is pretty much the only clue you’ll ever need to know I haven’t been fully myself lately. Just, life, you know. I have had to deal with the struggle of uncertainty and the sting of disappointment, heights of frustration and depths of despair.

And though a bit of resentment still remains, I understand that everyone goes through phases like this in their lives, and this is my time to suffer through such a phase. I have always thought of myself as one who’s accepting of struggle and of pain as a way to growth, and I feel like I am now being tested to prove that through the way I conduct myself at this time. I have wanted to get back on here from my hiatus with a post that has a happier tone than this, but I have a feeling I am meant to write about struggle. No matter, I refuse to do so with a defeatist tone, because I believe in the beauty of struggle borne with grace and strength and courage.

And grace and strength and courage I do have, or at least am trying to have, no matter how difficult life gets. I simply refuse to give up hope that things can and will get better in time. If you too are going through a rough time, I wish you refuse to give in to hopelessness and despair as well. Whatever struggle we are going though, it is meant to teach us something. And we will learn, and will be better for it.

Life could hit us as hard as it wants to, but we can always try to find it in ourselves to get back up, pick up the pieces, and keep going. It’s okay to feel lost and to lose it for a while; what matters is we remain open to a chance to find our way—and ourselves—again.

I feel that now is that time for me to get back on track again. I’m ready to pick myself up, dust myself off, roll up my sleeves, and try one more time. There’s something oddly satisfying and invigorating about having gone through the worst of times, because you know that when you turn the page, things can only get better from now on.

So to the blogosphere—and to life—I say, Hello again.

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28 thoughts on “Hello Again

  1. You, Ma’am, have been missed. It kills a writer not to be able to write or write to their full capacity. I am sure many contacted you while you were away to see if you are okay, I today reached out to another blogger who has disappeared without notice over a month ago now. Hopefully, they are okay too. Anyway, it is great to see you back and look forward to your blogs as always 🙂

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  2. Ooh, god this happens to us all. Hopefully you’ll look back and find a lesson hidden in there, or perhaps let go of something, so you can move forward. But even if you don’t, at least you’ll know that everything is temporary, and that this painful slump will pass. Welcome back.

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  3. I hate these tests, they’re killing me. I didn’t even know to study. I keep waking up thinking I’ve made it through, over the pit, beyond the agony. But everyday I wake up and groan, the test is still testing. “I get it, already!” I cry. “Back the hell off, won’t you?”

    I hope your passing marks see you through.

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  4. Welcome back and IAM pleased to meet you here… and look forward to reading more of your delightful tales. It is great that we honour our own need to just be quiet and embrace everything that is happening now. Energies are so strong now, releasing all our past garbage once and for all… so I do hope you said a great farewell to them and allow yourself to move forward in a new way. There are no more lessons to learn (unless we choose of course) and everything to just enjoy now.. much love Barbara x

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  5. Hello again, and as with you, writing offers an “out” for me in terms of escaping (however briefly) when things get tough ~ a great place to contemplate and let thoughts flow out onto paper/screen. It is tough when dry spell comes, as it seems I bottle things up further and get more frustrated…but in the end, I know I will write again. 🙂 Wishing you a great week ahead.

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